I was just reading the previous article with the same heading over here. During the read, some more questions popped up in my mind which needed further analysis. Among the various questions at hand, the one that troubled me the most was this one – Have I been running away from challenges my entire life? I mean, if I could not find any particular area wherein I have worked really hard and achieved something, then surely, something is definitely wrong.
The onset of this blog is quite haphazard and makes we wonder as to how little I think before venturing into something and at the same time how good a guide raw intuition is. I wanted to do something like this, but didn’t know what exactly. I thought I would copy farnamstreet and probably create something similar.
Without surprise, that plan backfired big time. Personally, copying others is not really a healthy conduit for my own creativity. While borrowing ideas from others is very common, setting up the soul of your work similar to someone else is definitely not sustainable in the long run.
With every action carrying so much weight, it becomes imperative to lay out a certain structure for the entire process. Not only does it involve money and my limited mental energy, it also saps the most precious resource i.e. time. Hence, let’s focus our energy on the same.
I am not sure as to how exactly I want this blog to look in the near future but I want it as a platform that would allow me to put my random thoughts into a concrete form. And while I am at it, churning out something useful for people in the same boat is definitely not a bad idea. Some things like Tax, Investments, job search, interview prep can be quite useful really. Let’s see how this pans out. I’m pretty sure there are quite a few keywords I can potentially target with this kind of a setup. There is lots of work to be done, let’s wait and watch.
On the monetization part of it, as long as I don’t have to spend money while maintaining it, I am good with it. My other website compensates for this pursuit and will hopefully continue to do the same till this one starts paying for itself.
I am not really sure if I would love to pay for this from my own pocket really if I were not earning anything in return. The maintenance is roughly $125 per year, which is not too small an amount for me as of this stage of my life. With some trickery, I can take it down to $40 roughly but that soaks up a lot of my time. Still early days for this setup actually.
If I break it down even further, I would need to spend roughly $10 per month (at worse) to keep this thing floating. I think I can do that from my own pocket too in the long run. Not that bad really. It would all depend on my motivation level and how I plan to play this forward. Chow chow till then.
Somewhere down the line during my upbringing, things got messed up – by me, of course. The things that I did, most of them, did not involve too much of hard work. At least by my bandwidth standards, I definitely was not uncomfortable during most situations. Even if there was a task I was not able to learn like swimming for example, eventually, I was able to accomplish it without much rigorous effort. Just like that!
I think I got it from my mother, I saw her doing it often – trying to make guesstimates about things that you she knew nothing about based on things that she did know about. More often than not, these deductions were pretty logical, consistent and followed a good linear thought.
The problem is - it’s hard to be right in such a scenario, consistently (even remotely).
There is a big problem with me at times – I just can’t speak up in certain situations. I get a brain freeze and don’t know how to react. Weird assumptions guide me, assumptions that exist only inside my mind and have no practical side to it. It seems a bit arcane as I try to imagine the scenario really but most of the times I am afraid – afraid of being judged, of being labelled with an opinion or of getting in an argument.
Did not have a productive day today. Spent most of my work time playing chess and thinking about s*%. The latter is pretty normal I guess, at least at this age. As it is, we live in a sexually starved society that is India.
Warren Buffet had this to say about the course that runs parallel to the theme of this book – “This book changed my life”. I just found out the why and how of it. There are many reasons one might read a book – entertainment, motivation, learning, passing your time etc. For me, it’s essentially self improvement.
At Harvard, this book is taught in the philosophy program and for me, that was bait enough to go ahead and consider reading it. However, my frugality (of time) got the better of me and without looking at the content, I ended up buying a very poor translation of the 16th century text (sigh) and while I did come across some new words to add to my lexicon, moving from one page to another was a giant pain in the a**.